I'm such a friggin loser; I just realised.
Was talking to Tomoe on msn just now, and we both realised how sucky we are as friends.
Today was a day I never ever felt before in my life. I could feel it okay.
I
was am irritated at myself cos I'm irritated at people for no particular reason whatsoever.
quote Tomoe:i feel like digging out my own eyeballs and flushing them down the toilet bowl thn banging my head on the wall and dying. gross, but yeah (:
sometimes i think i suck cos ppl are nice but you don't appreciate what they have done for you instead you get put off by their behaviour. on the surface it seems as though you two are really hitting it off well but deep down you are annoyed by their behaviour and it mounts up and one day you are simply exasperated you just wanna let go all of your feelings. which is what i'm feeling right now. which completely sucks, cos I just realised what a bad friend I am, not showing my true colours.
and i'm effing pissed cos XXX okay fine my dad doesn't allow me to watch singapore idol and he should just go bang his head on the wall instead of being such a control freak. argh do you know the whole day i've been waiting for this. i should just go and murder him. and i'm tempted to say that F word now, I was like mumbling to myself, "F***".
someone pass me the knife
